Writing out my thoughts (occasionally...)

One of my greatest challenges as of late, is writing out/exlplaining concepts/things I have a knowing/understanding about (because I want to and feel compelled to share them.)

I have had to make myself laugh at the frustration of the sometimes sooo-drawn-out process that is articulating thoughts and knowings.

I can think a knowing of a thing in a blink, complex or simple, doesn't really matter because in the depths of my mind where the clearest of understandings takes place (sometimes beyond my conscious perceptions and understandings) time exists far more fluidly and infinitely.

It isn't until I try to define the knowing in terms or pictures that can be put on paper (digital or otherwise) in a comprehensive order, I realize that relitivity of time.

In my personal interest of self-evolution I find myself pondering and analyzing myself like a test subject. In this I realize this exhaustion was a by-product of my manner of thinking toward the experience that is sharing thoughts in forms outside the mind.

If I began my endevour daunted by the knowing I can think it in a blink yet take a week to write it out, then the entire experience of writing it out -- every time -- was a miserable affair and more often than not, took even longer than I'd originally fathomed.

If, however, I made the choice to think in equally relitive terms of the fluiditity of time, and indulged in the opportunity to explore words/definitions of my knowings and ponderings -- without fail -- I surprised myself with how seemingly easy/effortless most of the process was; one thought leading to the next in a manner my timeless-mind had already laid out in the blink-of-knowing I started with.

The Art of Allowing, I remember someone saying.

I think to myself, What is exhaustion but meeting resistence, hm?

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