I have never been in love before.

But when he looked at me for the first time, I swore I was. I know, pretty cliché right? But nonetheless true.

The first time I saw him, he appeared to be busy. His mind somewhere else.

I walked in and he looked up, because of the sudden noise I realized. He seemed almost confused by this new group of three that walked through the doors. He turned to us, but not to look for too long. I sat down, nervous and slightly uncomfortable (and he didn't really help much) but somehow I felt comforted. His dirty blonde hair was kinda long, but not passed his ears, and his sea foam blue eyes were astounding (though I tried not to stare.) he had acne scars but they didn't matter to me because all I could think is, 'there is no other perfect being on this earth but him.'

Amazingly, we became friends. Over the next year and a half we talked and hung out (never on a date though and always with the company of my sisters.) and before I knew it, he was all I could think about. Day and night. My best dreams were the ones that he featured in and I loved every second of it.

I was talking to my friend over the phone through text message and she said she was talking to him. She was his friend too, you see. I told her to say hi for me and then something I didn't expect happened. He asked for my number. I was blushing like crazy and glad no one could see. Obviously I said yes and we talked that night. Eventually he asked, and I quote, "Do you like like me?" My heart was racing but I couldn't tell him the truth. You see, at that moment I had started falling for him and I knew I more than just "like like(d)" him. I couldn't tell him that for a few reasons though. 1.) he'd think I was crazy 2.) I was afraid of his intentions with the question. What if he didn't ask because he liked me back and was just curious, because I'm sure it was obvious and 3.) my sister liked him too. So after thinking it over I asked him, and again I quote, "why do you want to know?" Surprise surprise, he didn't respond and we continued our lives as if the conversation never happened. But life with him in it was spectacular. I knew there was something special about him from the beginning but I never thought I would end up falling for him. But soon my hopes of being with him were crushed. My sister told me that she was sure he liked her and not me. I wasn't ready to admit that that could be possible so I decided to let things happen naturally and what ended up happing isn't much of a surprise. Because this is a love story after all. He ended up falling for her. Oh, I see, you thought this was a love story about me? Sorry to disappoint, I wished for the same thing too, but there was nothing anyone could do about it.

So I sat and watched them grow closer as my heart tore apart.

My heart ached to be with him more than anything else in this world, but I was happy for them. Whenever she smiles, he's happy.

Whenever he's with her, he's happy.

Though it's true I love him even to this day, but still, I'm glad he got the love story he was after. Even if that meant I'd have to wait for mine.