Looking Again

Across the confines of my mind

I saw you.

Across the scar infested memories

I saw you.

Across the ocean of tears

you saw me.

We walked with each other

and shared all our secrets.

We promised the silliest of things

like protecting each other.

You told me you'd be by my side until I died

and I promised it too.

Across the wicked mind of mine

I conjured you.

Across the depression and anxiety

I loved you.

Across my illusions

I lost you.

I tried to find you, across my mind.

And when I looked again, you were gone.