Celestial Pedestal

I wish things were as easy as the stars make it look. Up there, shining brightly, you can never see what's going on with them until the explode and a light goes out in the sky. You hardly miss it for the next one comes into view just as quickly as the first dies. We are constantly replacing our stars, looking to them for guidance, expecting them to be so much more then they are and are disappointed when we meet them expecting something diamond-like and pure and find a fragmented shell that is a second away from becoming a nebula and leaving their inflated position. I could never be a star like Betelgeuse or Kanye. I could never look at those who idolize me with anything but pain because when you are so far away from everything, it's hard to know what's real and harder to tell someone when you think you are about to implode.