Colorless

"The chocolates that I gave, and all the flowers/ Have changed today into nightmares and pain/I already lost my faith in you for the better/Yes, after the rain comes a rainbow but without colors."

It sounded better in Spanish, since the first time I heard it, it grabbed my heart and squeezed it. I guess it hit some part of me I was ignoring again. I wasn't heartbroken for any tangible reason and had probably just fallen down a manhole of depression again when the song first slipped into my Pandora feed. The second it came on, my mood fell and I felt everything. I didn't understand enough to know every word but knew whatever he was saying, I felt it and it hurt. Especially the colorless rainbow. I would say the words often, letting the words roll around in my mouth and dissecting them with my teeth. Rainbows were always happy before this, but now I just feel sad knowing the rainbow will fade, the colors are meaningless, and that love is fucking futile.