My constellation

It was always the stars that brought us together.

As kids, we would sit in my backyard and watch them glimmer for as long as possible until my mom would call us in for bed.

Growing older we would sneak out of our houses and meet up at the park in the middle of our places. At that point, we were just starting to realize what love was. I will never forget the first time you sneakily grabbed my hand to hold as we both blushed and looked away.

Going into high school we grew apart, made new friends, and you fell in love. I always waited, I knew we were soulmates... for the stars told me. When he broke your heart you called a meeting at the old park, my heart broke with yours as you cried. I pointed out constellations to calm your soul. I remained calm though because I knew in the end, we would be together, you know how I know? The stars told me...

Then it happened... laying in the itchy grass as I pointed out constellations you leaned over and kissed me. I had never experienced such bliss until that night. The stars shined brighter than any night before im sure of it.

I was given two years before you were taken away from me. Just when I had you in my arms.

Funny to think the thing that brought us together was the one thing that didn't help you when you needed it the most.

Looking at the stars now I feel nothing but hate. I should be here with you but now its only me, the dying grass, and the stars that once promised me a soulmate. My eyes blur with tears and I can no longer make out the constellations.

I can't do anything but tell myself you are now the brightest star out there, watching me as I lay in the disgusting grass and cry myself to sleep for the fifth night until my mom or your dad would come to get me.

You were my constellation, will it ever be the same?

-sorry, I've been gone for a minute, someone important to me passed away. This piece is dedicated to her. Stay safe everyone!