I have never held anyone like this before. Not someone so small and innocent inside of me. Sure I've been pregnant with the little monsters inside me before but I've never been actually thinking about keeping one. And not just because I love the guy I who's genes are in this child.

You see, all the other times it's been a simple decision, just get a abortion, but this time, it's different.

It's just like something is telling me to hold on to this one...

All the other times I've barred child was the product of being raped by my previous boyfriends or strangers so I've had no interest in keeping the complicated beings. Once, this guy named Ryan wanted to hook up so I thought, "why not?" So I go out with the dude and he's very forward from the beginning about what he wanted. Of course, I had refused his offer, and he got furious and just raped me in his car. He left bruises in between my legs and on my shoulders from where he was holding me down. I had a black eye and busted nose. Parts of my hair were torn out from where he forced me back and forth on himself, pushing and pulling me by my hair.

All of those experiences I wanted to forget, so I thought by deleting parts of it, starting with the demon growing inside of me from those devils, I could do that.

But right now, as I am sitting in this familiar room, I'm having second thoughts.

Lucinda, my usual doctor, comes out and calls my name. I barley hear her through my thoughts.

"Taylor. Taylor. Taylor!" She's shaking me by now. "Are you alright, hon? You look like it's your first time here."

Did I? I bet I looked pretty bad.

"It's just that-, I just-," I sighed. Upset I couldn't find the words to express my feelings.

"You want this one, huh?"

I looked up at Lucinda, the girl who's been with me from the start, the girl who never judged me because of my decisions, the girl I've grown to love.

"Wha- how did- uhh..." Too confused now to put a thought together. Is that really what I wanted? If I hadn't decided, how could she be so certain?

"I knew they'd grow on you." She said, as a warm smile spread across

her face.