Ashes on the wind

The wind screamed louder while I shed a tear. I believed it was calling someone so I wouldn’t transform into this rock while alone. In the event of no hopes, I remembered when I got the bananas from the tree I had just learned to climb or when I ran so fast I almost became the wind that was crying for me right now. I’m sorry, I wish we had more time together. As I close my eyes, I have a vision of two monsters, they look just like me or my mom, but different. They cover their bodies with some kind of leaf I can’t recognize and wear that look in their faces. Despair. Why would they feel despair? It’s okay. I would became a rock someday, anyway. Just let the wind blow the ashes, then.

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“In the middle of the forest, two biologists found the girl with a injury on her head and brought her to the city’s hospital where she remains unconscious. No one has gone there to claim her, therefore, she remains with no identity. This is The Night News, Good night.”

- So, this was you? - Sirois asked me with those chocked eyes everyone gives me when they find out I had a forest upbringing. - How? You’re the most urban person I know.

- Yeah, I have no idea. Apparently, that’s me. - I laughed while he kept looking at me. - What? That’s it. Maybe this is my rebirth, this is my chance to be right here, where I’m at.

- Do you believe in it? - My raised eyebrows maybe him laugh - I mean, you’re very successful, but you seem a little off sometimes.

- It’s just… - I gathered my thoughts once again knowing that my answer would not be accepted for me - Everyone, my whole life, talked about my rebirth. How I was born again not only because of my lack of early memories but also because I was given the chance to live in this world and be well loved and grow up gracefully.

- But you don’t think that…

- I do think that. - He took a sip of the water. - But I do have a memory. They’re not vivid, but I can sense there’s something in the air that makes me want to look back at it. Whenever the wind blows in my ear or makes my walks when I wear a dress extremely uncomfortable, I can feel it. I can almost touch it. But, I can’t access these knowledge so I have to live with this half ignorance while I treasure my rebirth.

- Why don’t you go back then?

- Why would I throw myself on fire again just to watch me burn?