ok, here’s what you do.

my dear friend , i posted many articles about feeling better and overcoming depression and anxiety. so have thousands of others.

but anxieties have this way of coming back. maybe just in different form. people have lived with that since the dawn of time and they will continue to do so in the future. all you need to remember is that in the large scale, the entirty of your life, this is just a short moment.

try thinking of this like calculus. i HATED math in highschool. but i remember learning about functions and derivatives.

try to think of it like this. your life is a strange wavy function. the general trend is upward. now. at this moment, the derivative is a downward line. but the line meets the function through only two points. after that, it’s gone.

this crisis will be over. this math will over, this post will be over. and you will rise and laugh.

if that doesn’t help you, let me prescribe a radical treatment. it works like a treat.

find a performance of Franz Schubert piano trio in E flat major. listen to the interplay between the piano, the violin and the cello.

now, go to the second movement. it begins with a slow march-like tempo of the piano, a quiet moment. then the cello comes in and cries his sorrows in what i believe is the most beautiful melody the human race put together. I imagine a trio of friends meeting. they had a happy moment at the first movement. then they settle down , and over the emptying second round, the cello cries. he is broken, he is lonely, he is afraid.

the piano and violin talk it out, they sympathize. they too, have known great pain.

the rest is mostly joyous. things happen . a break from the melancholy.

listen to that cello. listen closely. I beg you. if your heart aches like he does, then you are human. you feel pain. but you have hope.

*i recommend the Heifetz trio, if you can get it. maybe on youtube?