i wait in the rain

i wait in the rain / drops slithering through my lashes like ice / umbrella clutched in knuckles turned white / staring up at your bedroom window / waiting for your face / because you'll be out in a moment, right? /

come inside / you must be cold / that's alright, thanks / your daughter will be out soon / i'm just waiting /

and waiting /

and waiting /

but you never arrive / and i think i knew that all along / because you have become an atlas / and i keep flipping through your coarse pages / again and again / hoping to find something new / something for me to hold onto so you don't slip through my fingers / like you always do / but all i find are the same old records /

please / just your face in the window / it's all i need / and the rain is so cold / breath puffing in front of my face / i can't tell whether it's rain or tears staining my cheeks / and there are people on the street, people trying to talk to me / and i don't like talking / only to you / only to you / only to you / but you're not here /

how long do i have to wait / back aching / rain dripping / heart breaking / before you join me out here? / i came to all this effort / and still i wait in the rain / drops slithering through my lashes like ice / umbrella clutched in knuckles turned white / staring up at your bedroom window / waiting for your face / because you'll be out in a moment, right? /