Am I a real girl now?

It takes me 20 minutes

to wash my face every night

1. Benzoyl Peroxide

2. Tretinoin

3. Clindamycin

4. Moisturizer

5. Lip balm

Am I a real girl now?

I spent 2 hours

learning provocative dances

because boys like that shit

and a boyfriend is

step 1 to fitting in

Am I a real girl now?

I went skiing

and on the lift

I complained about the cold

and my skin

and how fat my jacket made me look

Am I a real girl now?

I choked down

half a teaspoon of vinegar

to speed up my metabolism

because that's what models do

Am I a real girl now?

I look at my phone

and pretend someone's texting me

(when I'm really just playing word games)

Am I a real girl now?

I giggle

and used the words 'like' and

'hot' as much as possible

Am I a real girl now?

I heard you trash talk our friend

to a stranger

and I turned away

and kept on smiling

knowing I've been that friend before

Am I a real girl now?

Now my waist is the size of a toothpick?

And my sentences all start with 'sorry'?

Am I a real girl now?