The brain

So I’m slowly learning I can’t please everyone. It’s my goal as a friend, partner, or whatever to you happy. Can’t do it. My brain works differently as my boyfriend tells me, it is normal because I am intellectual inclined because I analyze and compartmentalism small phrases and sometimes words which can misconstrue the contextual overall communication. So it hurts me when someone belittles and/or gets angry south me because I may not catch exactly what you are talking about until a key phrase is introduced.

After all that then dark thoughts start to creep into My brain. Thoughts that just make me want to disappear. Deep down I know I would never, but the option should never be there. I type this cause I just need someone to vent to and right now there’s no one to listen. So then my brain then starts to sub-categories everything everything is just all a mess. Maybe I’ll listen to music, play a concerto game, I don’t know. I guess I’ll just start a new category.