Dragon in me.

I allowed my fears

Too turn into reality

No ones fault but my own

For ignoring my signs

I began to fade away

With every breath I took

Slowly releasing each

warning sign.

From the vague conversations

The desire to show my real

Self got locked away

In a blackout dungeon

Turning my “I’m fine”

Or the biggest lie of all “i am doing great”

Falling into the firey cauldron

Creating the poison

I devoured daily

Making each flashback more vivid

Making a bed of hot rocks to sleep

Losing to the poison after releasing the burning lava in my stomach

Coughing up my fire breath that’s turning everything into an ashy gray standstill

Flurries of guilt, shame, regret and pain on the ground becoming STAGNANT

SUCKING the love & light from the eyes

Each battle my dragon came out in fear.

Trapping my true soul in

the blacked out dungeon

My mind was in a straitjacket

pounding my body against my own walls

RIPPING& TEARING from the inside out

Dying the threads red from the blood of my finger tips in pride to escape

Back in reality

The dragon rampaging throughout my life engulfing my love with it’s hot burning embers

Then one final hot airy breath

I wake up to a humming noise

letting me go from my blacked out dungeon

Blowing the ash away with fresh air from the sky

I cry.

Why.