I Believed In LOVE

I believed the people who said they were my family.

Now I KNOW, I have NO family, I am an orphan I have NO family.

My mom died during childbirth, I was blamed for her death. I have no dad for she was raped.

The people who raised me took me illegally. There is no record of my birth, there is no record of me.

it explains. why the “man who called himself dad” beat me so badly and let men do sexual things to me at the age of three for his drugs. because I was simply property to him, just like how he treated me. lugging me around.

it explains why he always told me my “mom” wasn’t my “mom”. I thought he said that because she left. and never talked to me again. no he said that because “SHE ISN’T MY MOM”

WHO ARE THOSE PEOPLE? how did they get me? where did I come from? who are my real mother and father?

this is so crazy!!!

it explains why I don’t look anything like any of the people who claim they are my family.

it explains why there are no pictures of “my mother” pregnant with me.

I always believed we had a family when we are born? I did not.

I always believed family loves us... mine did not.

I always believed I was LOVED... I AM NOT.

I am completely alone in this world, where is the LOVE?

I always believed you would find it in mom and dad. NOPE, not here only hatred, abuse, and resentment.

I always believed you would find love when you married a man. NOPE not here only 30 years of control and abuse. Wouldn’t let me work. when I finally left him, I believed I would be able to find work. NOPE again. I became homeless last year because of that man... NO LOVE THERE AT ALL!!! ONLY 30 YEARS OF TORTURE AND ABUSE!

I always believed you would find love in your children. ready? yup, here it goes again.

NOPE. NOT HERE EITHER. 3 daughters all turned their backs on me. this after giving my whole life up for them to protect them from their abusive dad. after that bitch leaving me with that evil man who called himself dad. I couldn’t turn my back on those girls. But they sure turned their backs on me. They didn’t care I was homeless. One daughter finally talked to me to tell me... I am not welcome in her home because I am evil... this after she says I am the most positive person she knows, I ask what did I do. she says NOthing. She let her evil controlling dad convince her of his lies that I am evil.

I believed I would find love in others. I DID NOT!

IT WILL NOT BE FOUND IN OTHERS.

Love can only be found in one place... the Soul.

for it is written by God’s hand.

″Love can ONLY dwell in the Soul. and the Soul can only enter heaven through LOVE.”

I always believed Love was found in people. IT IS NOT.

Love is found in YOU. In your heart. That is the only place we will find love.

I just found out. I am an orphan.

The people who took me treated me very badly, abusing me in every way possible. I believed that was LOVE! Every time the man who called himself dad beat me he would say ”this is going to hurt me more than it hurts you. I’m doing this because I love you!”

I believed people were real.

I believed people cared,

I believed people loved.

NOW I KNOW THE TRUTH... PEOPLE DO NOT KNOW LOVE!

Athena

10/07/2020