How to Lose (something you never had)

1. kiss a boy, two years ago precisely and step back

2. watch as he falls in love with another girl

3. move on- well say you moved on, act like you move on

4. don't move on- write it down in scabs and scars on lined pages.

5. physically move on.

6. talk to him again when he sits beside you, when he looks at you.

7. ask about his day.

8. care about it.

9. when he invites you over in the dead of night, when the streets are empty of witnesses- go.

10. invite him to drinks, only because you can feel his hand on your leg days later burning

11. buy the beer he recommends, it tastes like burnt weed in your mouth, but buy it anyway.

12. when he shows his room to your friends linger, lean against his desk.

13. laugh softly when his fingertips bounce against yours

14. wait for him to look at you.

15. kiss a boy. Now.

16. (wait. repeat?)