Unfortunate for Everyone Involved

When I was in mddle school I had very specific expectations for how my life was supposed to play out. I was going to go to college for teaching, move to marthas vineyard or somewhere equally dull and marry a man. I would wait to have sex until marriage. I wouldnt drink until I was 21, maybe not even then, and I would never ever do drugs. I would become a mother and a dutifull wife. I would be perfect. My life would be perfect.

But then I got to highschool and all of that kind of went to shit.

I went a little off the rails. I realized how fun it was to drink and smoke weed and pop the occasional pill. I lost my virginity, got my heart broken, and started actually living my life But every time I broke a rule new ones would pop up - ones that I thought would preserve my purity. One of my hard rules was that no matter what I would never ever have sex in public.

But then I did.

I had known him since first grade and while I was a budding delinquent he had been the poster child for a parent eye-roll since middle school. It was spur of the moment, he teted me and asked me if I wanted to have sex. I said yes. He said to mee him in thr stairwell, so I did. We had sex right there.

So few people know it happened but it did and it will remain, in my head, one of the stragnest times I ever broke a rule, one of the best 5 minute periods in my life, and the moment I decided that the me I wanted to be in middle school kind of sucked.