Friendly Foe

She reaches out to me but I don’t want to see her. We’ve been friends for years, but she reminds me of the things I’m trying to forget.

I knew that when we spoke before it was more than just a friendly conversation. She chose her words carefully to investigate my feelings about us.

She thought she was being sly but my intuition knew better. I guess I should have listened before. She knew the truth when I didn’t and now I’m left feeling like a fool.

She reminds me of the darkness that surrounded you and leaves me questioning her motive. She cloaks me in the weight of the past and I just don’t want to go back there again.

And yet, I feel guilty for not wanting to see her.

10-2020