Raw

2:46am

I miss you so much and I’m sorry I don’t always show it. I don’t want you to feel like you’re negatively affecting me. You are the sun in my life, so of course there will be at least a couple of cloudy days. I miss you. Of course I miss you. I feel like something is always missing now, and I know that what I’m always looking for is you. Sometimes I will show that I miss you, like now, but other times I won’t because it will be the dull ache that I always carry with me now. I don’t want you to be mad at yourself because you think that you did this, because you didn’t. And it kills me to think that on top of everything you’re feeling like you’re making me sad, because you are the brightest light I’ve ever had in my life.

-Z