Roses Turn To Dust

The blue sky has turned to black with no comfort from the moon or stars, and the wounds that I thought were healing are now leaving scars.

I found you while I was falling into pieces, and foolishly thought they were falling in place; but it didn't take much and you left me falling apart instead.

How naive of me, to think this time would be any different.

Silly of me to think, I found someone who could hold on when the world began to shake.

I told you everything would be ok, but you left me to fall alone anyways!

You can't want someone to be there for you 100%, and not give it in return.

When life is crumbling around you both, that is not the time walk away!

No!

That is when you hold tighter, and crawl together, till you find steady ground again.

My whole life I've been made to feel like I'm impossible to stay with, and I believed it for a long time.

I tried to fight it;

but when every relationship ends the same way....

how can I think any different?....

Don't try to convince me that the next one will be better.

I don't know if I have in me to let someone in like that again.

When I allowed myself to admit that I loved you,

I did it with all of my heart;

but I am starting to believe that the amount of love and investment that I give!

I will never receive in return.

So why try again?....

Why?!

But see I say all of this,and to my core I mean every word!

I hurt deeply, but it doesn't matter; cause my heart is foolish and will always try one more time.

Honestly I wish that my heart would just act like picked roses and just turn to dust.