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you know, there's a point when I think, maybe if I leave him alone he’ll get it, but he never does. I never left you for someone else. *sigh* I guess it doesn't matter what I write you think what you want. But in your worst times, I was there even if it was killing me to see you like that. The time I left, I said it was to change and that's cuz I wanted to be able to help you, to help myself not feel so broken and unfunctional but you didn't see that. I believed everything you said to me, but I knew deep down you weren't being truthful, but I pushed that away, guess love is blind. Funny thing is, you never "destroyed" yourself you just broke down and felt bad I was gone, I'm not yours, not anymore. I'm glad you aren't gonna give up but don't follow me like a lil puppy doing whatever you think I want or would do because none of what your doing is what I'd do. But none the less I don't want you to be more like me, trust me it won't work. I really wish you'd stop saying sorry btw. And I never said you were that name just because of how you loved me, we have those things in common but you're more emotional than I am. Look I get it, you miss me and that's cool ig but *sigh* I chased you long enough, too long. I told myself a long time ago if I dated again they'd respect me, they'd trust me, talk to me about things, listen, help me with life, and let me do the same.