Why not love?

I’m fumbling the words

Necessary

To quantify

The feeling of this loss

So I sit

Silent

Staring at the screen

Tears leak

Stream

Streak

Eventually scream

Why haven’t you stopped crying yet??

I rejoice

Each day’s end

As the struggle to function

Is through

I pray

To the night

Not to beseige me

With thoughts of you

If tears were a blanket

I wouldn’t be drowning

If your love had been real

I wouldn’t be frowning

I’d just be warm

And loved

Why can’t

THAT be

My reality?