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Is there ever a point where this ends? I have no clue who I am. Yet its asked or thrown in my face everyday. Why..? See my “bf” he’s a straight boy right, and im a pansexual with no clue of my gender. I guess gender blind is really true. Sometimes I think ill miss things. Like ive always wondered how it was to date a fem boy, or an enby. Someone who isnt a masculen boy who is just like every other cisgender guy. Im 14 but I feel ill be missing out on experiences. Yes, I love who im with but, it seems all the same. Like I dont even know if I actually want kids. And i dont really wanna get married. At least not like he does. And I want my kids to grow up with two ppl that both feel that they dont need to be one gender or the other or be gay or straight, but just be who they are.

I dont want to be the stereotype of a hetero couple. Ive never wanted that. And I dont wanna feel like I cant pay for something just cuz technically im the girl in the relationship.That to me is just gross. I dont wanna worry if I figure out my gender is anything else but female my "bf" wont actually wanna be with me.