how.....

It's been so long...how do you love ? and I don't mean how as in details just I guess what makes your heart, or soul or mind think this is love?

because I'm in love but I can't do anything about it. I try to say to think of the positives and live in the moment. but life isn't a moment. I'm reading a book, "words in deep blue" by Cath Crowley https://g.co/kgs/qZE6wo. this makes me question meaning. words, actions, thoughts, feelings. what does it really do? I'm a hopeless romantic...and I'm told that means I'm hopeless, and at this point, I agree. fell for someone about a year ago but everything got in the way. and then we stopped talking like we used to. I hated the distance. and right now im just trying to understand if ill have a chance or not. he said i do but sometimes if hes not texting i fear i dont, and i know thats just my self doubt but its still in the back of my mind. but im determined to keep trying. Everything i do has meaning and worth and to me the things i do for him is that exact thing.