Exploding

I sit there in silence as we sit next to eachother. Wondering “should either of us be here? In this spot, in this exact moment.” I do my thing as you do yours, Just always a little conserened about what you are doing, but never question it. I just bottle up my emotions just like most aquariuses I know. I want to just stand there and yell at you at the top of my lungs sometimes, but I choose to still bottle it up, It is not healthy, but that’s all I have ever known how to do since I was little. I guess I will just hold it in until I explode. and it will not be a pleasent sight at all.