Away
For weeks it was all up in the air.
Yes.
No.
Yes.
No.
Yes.
Would they say you would have to leave us?
Would we know with enough notice to let the answer sit in?
Would we be able to make the most of our time together?
As a couple.
As a family.
To feel like we enjoyed the days before we said GOODBYE.
I wish it felt like we had.
I wish time didn't feel like it only sped up.
I wish the have to's didn't always get in the way.
I wish I felt like we made the most of those days.
But I don't know.
Did we?
Do you see it that way?
And now that your gone.
Now that your there.
Everything's different.
So many places do we need to grow.
So many things that we need to change.
But I know we can do it.
I choose to believe.
I TRUST that even though I don't see all the reasons.
Even though right now I don't completely understand.
We are here for a reason.
While it hurts to be here.
It doesn't hurt as much as you being gone.
As much as missing you.
And it only makes me want better for us more.
We deserve it.
We need it.
Our boys need it.
They deserve it too.
We love each other
And in the end that's all that really matters.