When It Hits

I don't know. I thought I was over him finally. I don't know what happened. I was fine. I was sleeping and the next thing I know my heart started to ache. It ached so fucking bad. I could honestly feel the pieces falling apart all over again. I tried to stand up but the bones, I know what happened to them. They just weren't there. I fell. Every time I blink, I see him. Now my eyes hurt because I refuse to blink. My throat is killing me, all I want to do is scream. I'm clenching my pillow. And I swear I just created another sea. I can't breath under these deep waters. And the water. Fuck. It burns my eyes and I can't swim. It's 1:34am and I'm on the floor in a ball drowning in the memories. The only word my lips can piece together is his name and each time I say it, I get pulled under. My heart is in pieces. I'm trying to hold onto them so they don't drift away. The waves are strong. And I just called because I wanted to know if you have any glue?