People Watching

Conan Gray turned into a short story

That wasn't funny but he laughed so hard he almost cried. They're counting months they've been together, almost forty-nine. Mark's making fun of how Alex acted around the holidays. He wears a ring but they tell people they're not engaged. They met in class for metaphysical philosophy. He tells his friends, "I like Alex because he's so much smarter than me." They're having talks about their futures until 4am and I'm happy for them.

But I want to feel all that love and emotion, be that attached to the person I'm holding. Someday I'll be falling, without caution. But for now I'm only people watching.

I'm looking just to live through you vicariously. I've never really been in love, not seriously. I had a dream about a house behind a picket fence, next one I choose to trust I hope I use some common sense. But I cut people out like tags on my clothing. I end up all alone but I keep hoping. I want to feel all that love and emotion, be that attached to the person I'm holding. Someday I'll be falling, without caution. But for now I'm only people watching...

"I cut people out like tags on my clothing," I mumbled, sketching the house behind a picket fence that I saw in my dream. "I end up all alone but I keep on hoping. I won't be scared to let someone know me. Life feels so monotone but I still keep hoping... I wanna feel all that love and emotion, be that attached to the person I'm holding. Someday I'll be falling, without caution. But for now I'm only people watching."

I sighed then got up from my desk and put on a light sweatshirt, walking to my mirror as I do so. "Let's go for a walk, shall we? To the coffee shop as it's only around the block." I spoke to my mirror reflection.

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"Danny!" my lover called to me. Such a nice ring to his voice when he says my name... I turned around and smiled as I saw him leaning against the doorframe. I walked to him and wrapped my arm around his waist, softly kissing his lips. "Hi, love."

I've finally felt all the love and emotion I've been wanting to feel. I'm attached to the person I hold. I've fallen without caution and life no longer feels monotone.

~Havrnjxxg