Goodbye, my love

I still love you,

but I don’t like you anymore.

Every time when our eyes met in the hallway,

You still make my heart flutter.

But something has changed,

between us...

I no longer have the courage and strength to embrace you again.

Even though I can still be with you,

every moment,

by your side,

you are no longer the one and only in my life.

Although you're still taking a place in my heart,

it is an empty shell with neither expectation nor hope.

Although I still can't control the heart that aches for you,

never again will I have any imagination of our future,

Although I still miss you,

it doesn't have to be you anymore.

I've tried to talk to you,

tried to understand your feelings.

I gave you my all,

yet you slam the door,

and let words pierced through my heart like daggers,

ruthlessly taking away my last bit of love and trust in you.

You'll never understand

what I gave up for you,

my pride, my ego, my obsession...

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In just one year,

I have changed.

I'm no longer the lively and cheerful girl that I once was.

In just one year,

I'm more mature,

ignoring all the unhappy thoughts that traumatized me.

In just one year,

I understood,

time can't form love,

but it can reveal one's heart.

In just one year,

I woke up,

I learned to appreciate and cherish those who love me,

because they're the ones who deserve it.

As days go on,

I went from a girl who loves to laugh to a girl who is afraid to cry,

because every time when tears are threatening to fall,

I'll remember that night when you left me,

the night that my whole world collapsed and broke into pieces,

the night that I cried until I couldn't breathe,

the night that I blamed all faults in myself,

the night that my brain was filled with memories of us from the past...

Never will I forget the day you broke me.

It's like a hole in the wall that can never be mended,

even if it did, it'll never be the same.

How shall I tell you that I miss you?

I'm afraid in just a short amount of time,

you'll find a girl to replace me.

I'm afraid the tenderness you gave to me,

you'll give it to her.

Most important of all,

I'm afraid you'll forget me,

and forget everything that we had.

But in the end,

I let silence swallow me.

If only you may stand in my position,

you'll probably understand why I chose not to give up my love for you.

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It all changed now,

There's no more reason,

for me to stay.

Slowly,

Let the love blaze the starry sky,

I'll turn my back on you,

and never look back.

This is no story of Orpheus.

Let the love perish,

gone with the wind,

let the most beautiful memories

bury with the ashes.

I will not look back,

I will not,

I won't.

Goodbye,

my love.