Self reflection

Sometimes I forget that I do not have multiple lives

I live as if God gives me no limit on my days but at the end of the day our days are not promised.

I know God is with me and for me and will guide me to what ever he thinks is best.

I am so mad at myself for all of the days I neglected or worrying way to much over things I could not control. I had way to much time in my hands because I was not really allowed to go outside because their were sketchy people outside. I had a terrible sleep schedule to a point I became sleep deprived I felt awfully sick. I would poor out my heart in soul to people which scared them away.I used to overthink to the point I thought I was bothering every one and I thought I was a nuisance just because how many times my mistakes were constantly brought up in the worst way every little thing I accidentally missed up on was brought up and it ate me up. I saw my grades as my worth and when ever my grade went slightly down I thought my future would be effected.I tried to take my life at such a young age and I am so glad I threw up all the pills I took because I would have missed out on so much opportunities and see so much and try all of these new foods and get to meet so many new faces.

Once I changed my mindset of being a better me in the most healthiest ways and to have a grateful heart and to live in the moment and to appreciate all the little things in life. I still have my struggles in life and how I see myself but I am better than I was before so that is progress and I am so proud of myself on how far I have come.