Suffocated

I get the sinking feeling now and again

Almost like I'm drowning, falling-

No, dying; this feeling feels like

dying

Slowly

And without you;

Without anyone

No one to hold my hurt;

To calm my nerves or

Pull the grief from my lungs.

It's hard to breathe, to think, to

Exist-

Knowing that this feeling might

not leave my gut, knowing that

My head might stay clouded,

Devoid of memories of you