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Do your eyes ever tear up with affection when you think of me?

Because mine do when I think of you sometimes

They tear up when I want to wrap my arms around you and not let go

Even if it's 75 degrees and we're both sweating

They tear up when I think about holding you tight

As if I could put you back together and make you forget you've been hurt

I hope I don't scare you with my emotions

I think about the way your thumb grazes over the top of my hand

And I feel something deep in my chest-

It makes me want to run to you

Grab your face and just kiss you

Because no words could explain how much I want to do for you

Like how I don't mind that you drink my smoothie

When you said you didn't want one

Or how I love your smile and want to make you grin more

Even though you think you need braces

And I want to make you forget all about her when you listen to the songs on your phone

And I wish I could melt away the hardness in your heart from everything she did to you

And I wish I could take away your insecurity

Some days I wish I could just jump right in and love you

But I can't quite love you yet

Though my affection and loyalty are so true

So pure and so understanding

I know we're not in love

And maybe we don't need to be

I like us just the way we are

When you greet me good morning and tell me you miss me

When you ask me if I make you happy in the middle of the day

And I let you know that of course you do

I like that I can mop a burger and fries in front of you

And that you can tell me what home is like for you

I like the way you rest your head on my chest

And I like that I can tell you anything running through my mind

My hands have gotten to know you

And your lips have gotten to know me

In my chest lies a strong affection

A real appreciation for you

And sometimes it's so overwhelming I find tears forming in my eyes

I wonder if you miss me the same way I miss you

At 2 in the morning or 4 in the afternoon

Driving home from school and seeing your face at the back of my mind

Laughing at the stupid puns I make

Giving me a cheeky smile because I wore the leggings you like

Sipping on my smoothie...again

I wonder if you ever get the desire to hold my hand when I'm not there

Or wrap me up in your arms so I can feel safe

Or to fall asleep with me and wake to watch the sunrise together

I want to make you happy, baby

Because you helped me find my smile again