Complete Introduction

Here i am

Everyone calls me J.

My favorite color is blue.

I love coffee and music because the two are therapeutic.

I'm a dog lover.

I've never been to Disneyland.

I hated the whole idea of school.

Which is why I was a habitual truant.

Absent like my parents from my life grade.

I am not religious.

My belief in religion died when my grandmother did.

But a few months ago I reconnected with someone I've grown to have a strong affinity towards.

I started thinking that maybe heaven wasn't a place,

But instead just moments held in good conscious.

I'm only 5 foot 7...

On a good day.

But being scribed like a short story is a journey to becoming the tallest tale in the book of life.

My grandparents raised me to be a good man.

Yet I feel like I'm still that troubled boy struggling to find his happiness.

I give great advice but I don't listen to any of it.

Often I'm told that I'm a hopeless romantic.

I found that it may be true.

Grandma always said that the ultimate measure of a man is not whether his love is true but if it's unconditional

A righteous heart inside man is the same as a gun with the safety left on.

Sometimes I feel my heart is the size of a closed fist

That takes constant emotional abuse to keep it beating.

I feel like my love is a 9millimeter pistol with black roses in its barrel

Signifying the beauty within the pain.

I am the son of a man who knows nothing about family and

The son of a woman who knows nothing but a needle.

I'm sick and tired of seeing "men" patronize women

Sick of seeing "men" as guns with hollow tips aiming at the women and staining the heart's full metal jacket blood red.

I'm sick and tired of seeing women disowning their worth and letting "man" stay unholstered.

I'm an old soul living in a young body.

I'm a soul that has wandered endlessly to feel whole.

I am a soul that is bound to dreaming.

Because in dreams...I have it all.

I think the scars that people have depict the battles they've won; physically and emotionally.

I think the best thing I can ever do is lather up the baby oil and showcase all of mine.

I firmly believe the world has a lot to offer.

I believe everything should coexist peacefully.

I believe that when the sun starts to set,

the moon rises to continue her partner's shine.

I believe the stars are reflections of promises I tend to keep.

There to help illuminate my darkened path;

To get me back on track for my long journey of reaching entirety.

I am a simple man with complex visions and

I am also a blind man that sees the world for what is not seen.

This is me.

So here i am.