Different meaning of first love.

I can't imagine giving you a fake shit-ish story about my first love. Instead I'm gonna tell you the real one, the one that it wasn't the first but the last one. Weird isn't it? Being in a couple relationships and having the first love with your last relationship? Let's jut say that it doesn't matter if it's the first or the middle or the last. First love for me means, the guy or girl that made you feel the love, trust them so deeply, care about each other, smile when think of them and so many others things. So this is the one I'm gonna give you!

I met my boyfriend 7 and a half months ago. He has the most beautiful caramel brown eyes in the dark and even prettier when in the sun. A smile that lights my heart every time and he is such a sweetheart. He knows how to treat a girl better than I know how to treat myself maybe?.

The first time we started talking it was through instagram. Same city, thousands of residents, a lot people knowing each other, common cafeterias, common streets and we never saw each other. Or maybe we weren't interesting enough back then to actually "find" each other I guess, like we literally passing by the very same areas and never paid attention or didn't caught eye. How annoying! But in the end we did.

First week we were friends because I was trying to escape a toxic relationship and didn't want anything else after that. So he knew my situation and I knew his, he was interested about a girl and it was complicated cause the girl was somewhere else but he thought that maybe had a chance so the only thing I did was to give him advice without knowing that the girl was me. But to be honest I was hoping that it would be me cause somehow, something was clicking in my head.

On valentines day I went to my ex to talk to him and after that I asked from boy x (let's call him that) if it was possible to talk to him about something and even he was working, he came to see me and talk. I remember that it was a cold day and he came whit a beautiful cap and the helmet. He sat next to me and introduced his self to me. The only thing I was able to see was his eyes and I, I was there looking into his smile and lucky for me I was wearing a mask so he couldn't see that I was smiling like a stupid kid in love.

Boy x was the first to talk and he admitted that he was interested in me and I couldn't believe it. I was so happy that I kept asking if he was sure about it cause I am ugly and fat and he said that it was interested and didn't care about how I look. So I said that I liked him too from the way he was talking to me while I brought my hand in his forehead to put some of his hair into the cap and he smiled so beautifully that I couldn't resist.

After that his phone rang, it was from his work and before leaving he hugged me and gave me a kiss on my cheek. Then he left and I was still in shock because he hugged me which I didn't expect. All I could think was how I might liked him more than anything else, so I had to end with my ex the very same day but he was nowhere, like I couldn't find him on his phone or online.

Next day I finally did it and broke up with the toxic ex and boy x gave me a call and asked me if I wanted to be his girlfriend and I said yes. Couple days after that we went out and I took picture of our hands, he made me say "I LOVE YOU" when noone ever tried that and everything was great until the ex found out and started threaten me and ruining things but boy x helped so much, like he lost a job because of me and that ex of mine and till now I am trying to do whatever I can to pay that back.

But the day I fell for the first time in love was that one day while all this drama was still on, he proposed to go out with friends in another place near in our town. I said yes and we did. At the whole road he was holding my hand and after at the cafe he did too. When we came back in our town we stayed a little more out, we went for a walk and then we sat a pretty place with an amazing view of our city and he kissed me. That night was the night I felt what love feels like. His eyes, his smile, his character, he is adorable.

He was and still is the first love of mine. I know that he is not the first relationship of mine but hi is the first love. As I said earlier, for me first love is when you get the vibe or the feeling from that person, that special something that screams love. So for me it has a whole different meaning that it has for all of you!