write a poem/prose starting with only if
If I were to...
Only if I had the courage to call out their name,
But what was their name?
My words are slipping off the edge, incoherent.
Only if I could possibly see them,
But what did they look like?
Am I stuck on if?
Am I stuck on possibilities and statistics?
Is that why they left me?
Only if I could be normal, only if my thoughts would align with theirs,
If I were to throw myself away, everything I felt,
Only if I could, if I just could,
Would they love me then?