Hollow

There's a hollowness in me

As wide as the Grand Canyon

Aching with need

Throbbing with pain

Frigid air freezes me from inside out

That man used to sit in my hollow

Kept me warm, kept me full

I almost forgot it was there

Until he stood up and left

Kissed me goodbye and went to Texas

Left me alone here

Aching with need

Throbbing with pain

Frigid air whipping wildly once again

This hollowness hurts

I know the wrong ways to fill it

I'll fill it with whiskey when I get drunk

I'll fill it with white and snort every bit

I'll fill it with green and smoke it out

I'll fill it with every drug I get my hands on

I'll fill it with man after man after man

I'll fill it with women and church and work

But none of these ever fills it for long

There's a drain at the bottom

Of this dark, hollow canyon

And I can't find the stopper

Everything I do to fill it leaks out

Aching with need

What is the right way to fill it?

I'm tired of doing it wrong!

Throbbing with pain

I don't want to be empty and hollow

I don't want that frigid air anymore

I want to feel full and loved

I want to feel warm and safe

I want that hollow to be gone