Whorror Fiction
I told her straight,
“And I was really trying hard
not to let you down first
-or at least to not be the first one
for once.”
and she cried there
and told me she was
sorry about fucking
another man
after she had told me
how shitty it was of her friends to do
something like that to their men
after she told me that
I was the only one she would
ever be like that again with
and the kettle screamed
and I poured the water
into her French press and
plunged the grounds to the bottom
and it was night out and we were fighting
she hit me hard inside the chest
with combinations and pictures of
her fucking this guy
and I stood there and
took it
and her eyes were full
of disappointment in
me but mostly in herself,
but that could not stop me
her mouth was quivering with
guilt and depression over the whole thing
the last three days she had been crying and
trying to patch it up with me
-sobbing her regret and love and
new, solid oaths
but that could not stop me
and I was full with all of the love and pain and
hidden things perverted and pure
I’d shared with her
the absolute trust I had given her and
no others
I stood in the kitchen
while she filled the air with her
precious mouth
I took a long and dull blade from a
big slit in the knife rack and I
carved an X into her torso
from outside of her shirt
and I punched her square in her
fucking teeth
and she bled there
and it was true blood
I bought her the French press
after we’d made love the first
night
and I asked her sternly
to drink the coffee
and she did
and I knew the caffeine hurt her
gums right then
she reached over the stove and grabbed the
lighter and some whiskey
she broke the bottle over my skull
and lit me on fire
and I stood there
burning
I answered the phone in flames
and she bled and I stood there on fire
and told my boss my car had been stolen
and when he asked me when it had
been stolen
I told him
two hours ago
and when he asked me why I didn’t
take the bus
I told him I had broken my foot
he hung up
and I hung up
and the flames fanned
around me
and her blood was
rain on the statue
of a once sacred
thing
destroyed either
by herself or another
but never both for her
and we stood there for
hours and I burned and she bled
and it was daylight.