Observing What Is Around Me
I’ll take deep breaths
close my eyes
and feel the space around me.
I’m trying to train myself
into believing
no one likes to be around me.
I let my mind wander,
skimming memories,
accepting the past within me.
I let my mind experiment
with morbid estimates
predicting the future for me.
I see no physical presence
of those who claim to care
disbelieving anyone loving me.
I get a lump in my throat
hold my breath
and cry in the space around me.
There’s no one.
There’s no one.
There’s no one around me.
There’s someone
sometimes
but they don’t care for me.
Eventually, I’ll see
the emptiness surrounding
is, in the long run, better for me.
Peace.
Serenity.
That is what I need around me.
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