Counterbalance

Sometimes, I just...

For every bit of real emotions of my own that I write,

I have to balance it out.

Or else...

I'll feel like a monster.

So I just-

I write little things.

Silly things,

Tidbits of this or that.

Funny, cute, lyrical things that just feel like it's a reminder that I left the monster of the teenager back in those days. She's proud of me, of not having to protect me anymore.

So I think,

When I go back to her,

When I remember her and all the things she used to think and say...

"Counterbalance"

And I'm remembering where I am today,

That I'm not there, but rather here.

I don't live that life anymore.

I don't have to.

That's the beauty of it.

I don't have to.