There's fire in my system,

running through my blood.

My ice shield is melting.

And I can't stop it now.

Why is it all burning now?

Something simple to light the trail,

of gunpowder leading to my soul.

So here I sit, throwing my fit,

Of unadulterated fury at the sky.

I feel so mad, yet I feel so sad,

Confusing emotions, I cannot lie.

I can barely figure out what it is,

That's the strongest in my mind.

Unreasonable depression,

Unasked for anger all here, in me,

But it's a mess I can barely figure out.

A miscellany of my emotions.

It's a mess, I agree yes,

Of something that makes no sense.

But after this, I crave a bliss,

In contrast to feelings this intense.

I feel like a ticking time bomb,

But my timer is cracked now,

So here I sit, no idea when

I could ever explode.

Is this feeling I have now,

my final moments before I do so?

I don't know, is it all for show,

A ruse by my own mind?

But even here, with the end maybe near,

I have yet to meet a fate more kind.

For in such a state,

With an end so late-

Coming, here I wish,

That someone come,

And take away this numb,

feeling with the dish.

The dish, best served cold,

My breath I can no longer hold,

For revenge to release me,

From these cruel eternity.