I Fell in Love (MJ part 2)

UGHHHH, this morning made me so overwhelmed. I woke up at my usual time, watched my normal video and then headed downstairs for breakfast. I watched my mom cook some eggs and asked if I could have some. I sprinkled some salt and pepper on them and then tied my shoes ready to head off to school. I grabbed a ride from Jack who was in a bad mood because his mom needed him to drive her two hours away the afternoon before for a specialist appointment that didn’t go the best. He was so exhausted. He usually is great at helping me feel comfortable around him in the mornings since I don’t understand our relationship fully, but this morning his body was consumed in this annoyance. He was so focused on how last night went he sped the whole way to school and didn’t say a single word to me. When we got there he just shut his door aggressively and headed to his first class. I felt so lost and confused. I didn’t feel comfortable around anyone so I just felt so out of place. I was walking to my locker when a random girl walked up to me and said my shirt wasn’t matching my pants. I assumed maybe she was a friend that was just giving me styling advice so I tried to muster out a “thank you” even though I wouldn't usually for a comment like that. She snared at me and told me I should burn my closet, ok… so definitely not a friend. Then Jazie walked up to me (she was in the video) and asked how my morning was. I filled her in and told her about the interaction I just had with that random girl. She asked me to point her out and I did. Then she goes on to explain that that’s Ashley and she has been bullying me for the past couple of weeks after she realized Jack wasn’t single. Which doesn’t make sense, me and Jack are not a new thing, how did she not know? I brushed it off and sorta thanked my memory loss for blocking Ashley out of my mind. I headed to math class and when I walked in I saw Ashley sitting on top of my assigned desk. I walked up and asked her politely to move and she wouldn’t. I felt so scared and alone, I didn’t know what to do, I didn’t know where to sit, I didn’t know who any of these people were. Then this 6ft tall boy walked up to Ashley, gave her a kiss on the cheek and whispered something to her. She looked at me in disgust, and slowly stood up staring at me the whole time. She walked away and the boy followed. He then turned around and winked at me with a stupid smirk on his face. Ugh these people, thinking they are star citizens for helping out the challenged girl. Does he want a medal or something?! Then the teacher walked in, told us to take our seats and to pay attention. I sat in my seat and didn’t realize he was a supply teacher. I don’t remember teachers so when there is a supply it just looks like my normal teacher. He took attendance and since I was sitting in the front he kept asking me how to pronounce names or asked me where people sat. I was so confused on why he was asking me, shouldn’t my teacher know that? When I told him I didn’t know, he got mad at me and thought I was just making his job hard. When people tried to explain what was happening, he kept telling them to be quiet and told me it was my responsibility to help him. I was so lost and shed a tear. He kept getting louder and more sturn when finally a student stood up and forced him to listen to him explain why I was being so “difficult”. He apologized, not very sincerely, and then asked another student to help instead. After attendance he wrote his name on the board and then everything made sense. I kept my head down for the whole class and stayed quiet for my next one. At lunchtime Jack texted me saying he needed to head out for lunch to help his dad at work, so we didn’t go out like we usually do. I sat at a lunch table with Jazie and just kept my eyes on my phone the whole time. The rest of the day was brutally slow, the events from this morning replaying in my head. Why would someone bully me for my boyfriend being unavailable? Is Jack usually this distant? Why was the teacher so against me? I texted my mom at the end of the day to come pick me up. Once she noticed I was quieter than normal she asked what was up, I told her it was a long day and turned my head towards the window trying to escape from the reality of the day. I got home, headed to my room and decided to write. Writing is such a huge therapy for me, it helps me remember the great memories and helps me think through the bad ones. Oh.. I just got a message from Jack, he said he is sorry for being so annoyed this morning and asked if I wanted to come play a game with him and his mom. I think I will say no, today seems like a bubble bath and Netflix type of day. Nap first though, always nap first.