The Inevitable and the Choice

If you can survive an experience, you can also learn to live with it.

Life consists of peaks and valleys; you can expect to struggle at times, excel at others, and experience a few low points and high moments in between.

Sometimes I've felt like I'm walking down a foggy road with no map. And it feels like I'm this complex kind of lost. Because I don't know my destination or where I'm supposed to be, or who I'm supposed to be or even be with. And it made it hard to enjoy life. I'd go from each day just getting by, trying to survive until I made it out of the fog.

I'd survive, hoping that one day--hopefully tomorrow-- I'd figure it out.

And I'd crawl through the days, inching and inching, hoping that I was getting closer to some desired destination so I'd realize what I was supposed to be doing, and everything would be clear.

But instead, I realized why it was foggy and why I felt lost.

I realized why I can't seem to find the meaning behind my existence, and my life, and why it was so hard to stop surviving and start living.

I felt lost because I was looking for a certain destination, and there wasn't one. It's foggy because I think it's supposed to be clear, but there's actually no clear road ahead. And I can't find meaning because there isn't some grandiose purpose for each and every one of us.

I finally started living when I stopped trying to survive and learned to live with what was right in front of me-- even the inevitable. And with no clear road ahead, I'm able to choose how I want to live with it, how I want to experience it, and the meaning I want to pull from it.