i lie, still

i lie still and pretend my body is my own

there is rain in my mouth and eyes it is(i am)

parasitical parasocial

it finds its way into the cavity where they

say my heart would be and when

i swear i feel it beat they say that is the rain

that seeps and seeps it is(i am)

unfeeling unyielding

sulphuric suffocating

i lie, still, and pretend my body is my own

the waves do not know me

perhaps they cry for me

drunk friends or mothers

i never felt a need to cry myself so

i lie still and pretend my body is my own

the rain tumbles through my veins

cleans dirt off my face

baptismal cathedral

of water and words

it is(i am)

my home.