Love, or something like it.

I wish you weren't so fucking beautiful.

I wish you weren't so fucking nice.

I wish you weren't so fucking vulnerable.

I wish you weren't so fucking fun to talk to.

I wish you weren't so fucking unique.

I wish I could just fucking understand you.

I wish you weren't so fucking sexy.

I wish I didn't love your touch.

I wish I didn't love your thoughts.

I wish I didn't love our silence.

I wish I didn't love your style.

I wish I didn't love your face.

I wish I didn't love your walk.

I wish I didn't love your stare.

I wish I didn't love your lips.

I wish I didn't love the mystery.

I wish I didn't love my thoughts.

I wish I didn't see you who really are

and love you so fucking much.

I wish I knew if I was fooling myself or not.