Just Some Thoughts. Part 3

Time for another.... diary entry! I think I will just keep writing these, just to get the thoughts out of my head.

The days that I truly feel lonely, that's when I end up trying to distract myself too much. I just don't want to be alone, ever. This is contradictory, considering that I'm an introvert and want to be alone to recharge after meeting with people. I just can't stand the silence. Maybe I'll be okay with the silence when I'm older, but as I am right now, I can see myself in the future playing music during the daytime. In addition to music, I like to watch shows or videos, and seemingly become an addiction. If the entertainment was a flame, I would be a moth destined to fly right into the heart. One thing stems from another, and as I have mentioned in my previous 'Just Some Thoughts.', I don't trust myself. Part of that stems from the fact that I'll say one thing and do another, but I don't do just once, I do it nearly every time.

*This one is very short because I ended up going to bed without finishing this and it doesn't feel right finishing it on a different day.