Sailing
I know
It's my fault
I never
Wanted you
To see
How hard
It was
For me
I held
My suffering
Like a newborn
Carefully
And away
From the world
But when
We left
The shore
In our
Single parent sailboat
Me
Not even knowing
How to sail
I pointed out
The sunny skies
To distract you
While I fought sharks
I said
Close your eyes
And feel the breeze
While I
Evaded pirates
I said
This is fun
Life is great
When my exhaustion
Threatened
All our lives
You got bigger
And I built
A bigger ship
Learned more
About navigation
And felt proud
Of every storm
We weathered
Then the tsunami hit
And broke apart
All I had built
So we started again
With remnants
And new pieces
But
Older now
You stopped
Closing your eyes
And looking away
And saw
How close
We were
To sinking
And
Scared now
You shouted at me
Pointed out my flaws
Broke down my reserves
And I began
To question
My ability
And the boat
Fell in to disrepair
And when
It started to capsize
I said here
Stand on my head
And I swam to shore
And you ran off
Afraid
For your lives
And I built
A new boat
Smaller now
A boat for two
And your brother
Still closes his eyes
To feel the breeze
And looks
To the sunny sky
While I battle sharks
But I know
Someday
He will just watch
And I'm so afraid
Of what
He will think of me