My Truest Blue

Ever since the day I have met you,

you have been actively changing my life.

I proclaimed my fondness within six months,

This was very out of character for me

because I have always waited and never said something,

but you were different, I couldn't stop myself.

You turned me down, and I moved on

Despite my efforts, you always lingered in the back of my mind,

and it became second nature,

no matter how hard I tried to get rid of it,

the feelings stuck with me like honey.

We grew closer and we both had our share of relationships.

Every one of our exes hated us because they all thought we were a couple,

we joked in passing how friends and family kept mistaking us as together,

You think I didn't notice how you kept getting sadder each time you brought it up,

But I did, I noticed each sigh and glance when you brought it up.

My mother knew what the happiness you brought me meant,

and of course, your mother knows too

and I would give anything to be that wonderful woman's daughter-in-law.

I always joke about how she is everything I wanna be when I get older

and you can not contain your grin with it spanning from ear to ear.

It has been around five years now since we met and we couldn't be closer.

And ever since I told you how bad she treated me,

I can't help but notice how much more watchful you have become.

You got more protective of me than you had ever been,

even though this breakup was on par with the rest I have had.

You came the night it happened because I didn't wanna just sit at home,

making me not even think about my sadness

and instead made me snort in public like a child.

Then we spent two different trips together,

and each night I would wake up wondering why I was so hot in the room,

only to realize you were holding me,

even though we have never been friends who hugged or physically displayed affection.

I would go back to sleep only to wake up to you up and about,

wondering if you woke up when you were embracing me too.

We're around each other every second we can be now,

Our goodbyes get longer every time we say them,

your smile is the warmest it has ever been,

and I have never been happier to be in someone's passenger seat.

You always play Lover whenever I'm there and I can't help but think,

Do you like me now too?

After all these years I have ignored it but you have made it so hard

and I can not help but think I'm making it up and deny it.

But then I see you and I can't help the rush of emotions you give me,

they wash over me like the ocean,

continuously creeping up on me till I'm enveloped in the crystal waters of you.