Everything I
Speak? Sure. But, be warned....you'll find me...[choose your adjective].
Write? Why write? Does anyone read? I do write. I'm torn.
Buddhists and Taoists suggest I consider silence.
I'm not sure whether they meant the lips AND the pen?
Buddhist monks recite Gathas. I write "Archispeak".
Cross-referencing building and elevator codes.
Never a monk will I be, Buddhist or otherwise.
Beyond repair? Why would one repair......perfection?
Laugh. It's fine. I always wanted to make people laugh.
Have you heard about Gathas? Oh. Ha! Yes, this week.
Cute? That's a word like "crazy" or "normal". It's subjective.
The residential code is not a bit subjective.
For a small fee, I delivered in writing, very good news.
Yes. I do still have a highly functional brain.
Better, by far, than a supermarket robot!
Poetry? Some. My best portrays myself as a fungus.
I just wanted to be a fungi.......to make folks laugh.
The Buddha said not to be a fungus. Sort of.
Non-clinging and equanimity. Tall order.
That was an "in the moment" moment. Calmer. Quieter.
I thought it was a small dog at first. It was dark.
My grandmother was attacked by a raccoon. Cute?
My father said, "It couldn't have happened to a nicer person".
I have a bad story for everything. Almost.
He was all Budweiser and cigarettes. Good man.
But, I'm not qualified to judge. Not me.
I'm so disqualified: as monk, nun, man, woman.....
Ahh, but it's all water under the bridge, as they say.
Genderlessness aside, I'm too old, too sick to serve.
But, I truly feel that I've never been more human.
I cry. But, with more empathy and love than sadness.
Replacement? Only for the love of bone density.
Slippery, but sticky. Whose bright idea was that?
Excruciating pain and humiliation;
only to smear it on my arms every morning?
Osteoporosis or empathy? Life's latest "choice".
It's a shitty picture. But I'll keep my distance.
When it climbed a tree. Dogs don't climb trees. Not a pup.
I've tried, and tried. But, never had even a nibble.
I always thought that the biggest fish would be there.
True. A proper Buddhist would leave the fish alone.
Fact check this though: I've heard that the Dalai Lama eats meat.
Fish in the Gatha? No. Under the bridge, I mean.
Maybe the water's too fast. The current's too strong.
It's kind of like my bedroom at night. A mystery.
Nonetheless, I began my own Gatha.
The Gatha reminds us to cherish every day.
You know about blue light? No. Not the blue light special.
What store was that? A blue light on wheels.
It moved around the store. Like a bargain beacon.
No. Someone pushed it. No robots in the eighties.
Now there are robots working in the supermarket.
Apparently useless robots. But I shouldn't judge.
I began a poem about the puppycoon:
Dappled by shadow, I saw a pup all alone.
Toward us, on dimly lit walkway it scurried.
Has it wandered too far in the dark from its home?
"Whose lost puppy is this", I wondered and worried.
It seemed to be serving no useful purpose.
The same might be said of me: My wife's third child.
I tried to interact with it. To speak to it.
Like my grandmother in the hospital. Speechless.
She would not speak a word. Just unblinking eyes. Silence.
It's not great for sleeping. Street lights, computer screens...
Chainsaws and choker chains. Bears hooting in springtime.
I wish I'd kept one of the chains. Two. One for each shoulder.
I interact with it all: Blue-lit raccoons, Buddhists, and robots.
I speak to it all, with more empathy than sorrow.
The Gatha reminds us to cherish each moment.
I am having difficulty with the first line:
I wake rested from a good night's sleep. Maybe tomorrow?
An hour of silence. I left. At least I tried. Sort of.
"So nice of you to visit". The door closed behind me.
Let it go. I offer meta. It's a Buddhist thing:
May all beings be at peace and find some rest. Even us.