Return

Falling,

spinning,

down,

down.

Darkness muffles,

voices yell.

Relief at finally letting go.

Heavy the weight,

overwhelming to hold.

The tears remember,

the path down my face.

They tickle as the night air,

cools the damp trails.

The hollow in my chest,

an old friend.

Since a small child,

that emptiness held me.

Always there,

my stable dim light.

I fought and clawed,

my way out of its depth.

Abandoned,

rejection repays its loyalty.

It welcomed me back to the void.

The prodigal child returns home.

My body skips not a beat.

Settling into old safe sad routines.

My grand plans all set aside,

Returning to thoughts of oblivion.

Dropping my armor,

arms up in defeat.

Inviting the end to take me.