never have

the wind blows gently, sending shivers down my spine...

drifting my thoughts to how one touch from you did the same...

to a time when your name was deeply engraved onto my beating heart; whispering "mine"

but at las to you it was all but a foolish game.

yet, still i cannot control the need to feel your embrace

the same way mankind cannot control the hoarse ocean.

i think of what it would feel like to have close to mine your face, our breath engulfing every little bit of space...

but you belong to her, you always have. thinking you could feel for me what i do you, what a silly notion?

so i keep each memory locked away behind a firewall in my mind.

ensuring the treasured by me alone

hoping that is you, in someone else, i would find.

yet, it not you, and i feel grief rush down to my bones...

i can only wish that one day you know what i felt with you.

but at the same time i hope that never happens too