Moonlight.

Late nights spent looking up at the moon and the stars from the rooftop in the chill of a January night, with no one's company makes me sometimes lose myself in the beauty of the night sky and ponder about various things in depth. Cold air passes by from time to time and few vehicles swiftly pass by down the road, the city lights add a mesmerizing effect to the view. I think about life, thoughts about what the future beholds for me always captures my deep interest. I  wonder what I'd be doing five years later, would I be in my dream city living the life I've been visualizing in my head? Would I be in love with a man that surpasses my extremely high and unrealistic standards?

It also gives me a chance to bring out the inner child in me. It's like I'm free to feel various emotions so vividly, like exploring my own self. I suddenly become myself with no shield covering me from the world. There's no one that finds me annoying or boring or too childish or too quiet. I simply do not fear others' judgements about what they would say I am like. Because, there's no one to observe and understand me but myself on such a  deep level.

These nights make me never want to let go of that moment and the emotions I'm feeling at that moment. Just hold on to it tight and keep it in my safe embrace. But yet again, I have to return back to my room, under my blanket. The thoughts still roam around my mind in circles. I tell them to shush and fall into a deep sleep, only to dream of me in my dream city five years later.